I make paintings of the figure as a way to understand desire. For several years when I was growing up, my family lived in a small intentional community in rural New Hampshire with no TVs and with limited access to experiences of mainstream American culture in the 70's. I became fascinated with fairies and fairy tales, along with the meadows, stone walls and woods around me. During that time, I was a frequent subject of my father's paintings- usually depicted playing in fields of flowers in sun-drenched afternoon landscapes.
The psychoanalytic practice of dream interpretation parallels my own process of making paintings, where recollection of the dream includes voicing any thoughts, images and associations which come up. Similarly, when painting I have an image or idea in mind that feels fragmentary and often quite vivid, but it is incomplete. I take note of impulses to change or alter what I thought I was painting, and in so doing, I like to believe that my unconscious is participating in the process. To that end, I try to trick this into being as much as possible by following those thoughts and chasing down images gleaned from any and all sources, including my own outdoor photo shoots with willing friends. I’m constantly looking for a way to deepen a mood and amplify the emotional volume, so there’s a cinematic element that takes over when things coalesce. My hope is that viewers will feel a similar surge of dreamy intensity when looking at the work and can find a way to get caught up in it, making their own meaning if they like.